Wednesday, April 2nd

On Monday I went to a country line dancing lesson with friends. And tonight we hit the gym. I'm feeling strong. 

Tuesday, April 1st

I'm still recovering from Lasik surgery.  I can't wait for the swelling to go down and for my vision to even out.  It hasn't even been a week and so far, so good.
I stepped on the scale this morning and was at 190. That means a loss of 25.8 pounds!  That immense!  Last night I wanted ice cream and instead ate a cup of frozen Pomegranite avrils.  And it totally hit the spot :)

Tuesday, March 25th

I had to fast overnight for a blood test and I haven't recovered yet. I've been exhausted all day and eating sugar and drinking caffeine. And it didn't help. I feel like I'm limping to the finish line and yet, still have a test to study for. I had a salad for dinner that I topped off with the last slice of Apple pie (it was small) and a couple of squares of dark chocolate. I could have more!! If I didn't think I'd be awake for a week, I'd have some coffee. Note to self; stay on schedule!!

Friday, March 21st

Now comes the part where I have to deal with what comes after weight loss; I have less and less things in my closet to wear! I'm not complaining. I'm just trying to figure out how best to deal with it.  I tried on jeans yesterday at JcPenney's. I was able to wear a size 14 but liked the cut on the 15 better. But at this rate, I'll be in a smaller size again in a few months. My bewbs are swimming in my bra. But also the skin on my face is starting to sag. That bothers me the most and I'm not sure how to deal with that.

Thursday, March 20th

I had to buy smaller jeans today. From a size 18 to a 15. I was able to wear a 14 but the fit wasn't great. YES!!!

Tuesday, March 18th

Today is the 11th anniversary of the worst day of my life. 11 years and it doesn't hurt less. I have a wonderful life with my hubby and two babies but it doesn't hurt less.
I went out of town this last weekend. I wasn't a food saint but I also didn't go crazy. I didn't gain or lose so that's a victory for me.
The voice on my head is using my cheat weekend as a jumping off point for the non-stop negotiations that always come when I try and get healthy. Nothing bad happened and I ate 90% cocoa chocolate. So, if nothing bad happened then I can get away with a little more, right? What if I have some every day? It won't be bad. Constant fighting! Constant exhausting fighting!!!!

Tuesday, March 11th

On January 1st, I started this journey at 215.8. Today my scale reads 195.6! I got this!!!

Monday, March 10th

Just plugging away. I leave for the weekend on Friday night and will really need to plan my food out. I'm going to make some pork sliders for easy quick food. Maybe some fruit and nuts. What else?

Friday, March 7th

I finally broke down and opened my Lindt 90% cocoa bar. I had dance class tonight plus hadn't used all my calories for the day. 4 squares are 240 calories. I ate it pretty slow and tried to savor it. It was hard because 90% isn't that sweet. But, it hit the spot. I followed it up with frozen strawberries.

Thursday, March 6th

I'm excited about having to purchase new pants!
The temptation to eat garbage is less and less. I saw a donut today and thought about a trick an old Weight Watchers leader told me. Look at the food and how vibrant the color is.  Then imagine the color getting more and more dull. Imagine it getting so dull that it starts to look old and even moldy. By the time I was done, the donut looked almost green. I didn't want it to start with and definitely didn't want it after.

Tuesday, March 4th

ONE-derland!!!

Sunday, March 2nd

I've been so sick this week that I can hardly recall what I've eaten...or not eaten. The scale is not budging. It keeps hovering around 200-201. But my pants fit better.

Saturday, February 22nd

http://www.foodsafetynews.com/2012/01/dont-eat-like-a-caveman/  I've hit my first plateau. I keep bouncing around within the same few pounds. I'm not eating nearly the amount of sugar I was before. I'm exercising regularly. And bam! There's that wall. Maybe I'll add in brown rice and legumes once or twice a week? Food is confusing.

Wednesday, February 19th

My issues seem to be centered on carbs. I've had a few occasions now where my carbs have gotten so low that I can barely focus/speak/walk. I'm just not that good at food. I'm so used to getting my energy from sugar that I'm a little lost.

Monday February, 17th

Saturday and Sunday ended up being unplanned "cheat" days. I'm ok. But I need to hit the gym today for sure. Mondays are my gym day and I can't miss it. 15 pounds down and 15 to go.  Saturday was a belated Valentine's Day dinner at the Olive Garden. I had the mixed grill which was steak, chicken, potatoes and asparagus. I had salad which had parmesan cheese but picked the croutons out (cuz I don't like them). I did eat almost an entire breadstick. I counted as much of it as I could using the nutrition guide on the Olive Garden website. Mike brought me a soy chai latte on Sunday morning. Soy isn't on my diet but I can't drink dairy right now. Well, neither is the sugar but my sugar intake is still very low. Sunday's dinner was at a great restaurant in Carson City called "Sassafras." I had the Thai Chicken salad. I have no clue what the calories were in that. It was an explosion of flavors in my mouth. Mike decided to get something called Supercalicheesalicious...our something like that as an appetizer. It was a small sourdough round full of different cheese and garlic pieces. We are paying for it today but it was amazing. Back to reality and my nose to the grindstone.

Friday February 14th

15 pounds gone. BOOYAH!!!!

Saturday, February 8th

We worked hard in belly dance class yesterday. Which only showed me how out of shape I am. I was forgetting stuff and not hold myself like I should. I woke up today with screaming muscles. I'm at such a cross roads with belly dance. Do I continue or is it time to do something else? Mike said to make my decision in a year since it's so close to when I left the troupe. And I will.

Thursday, February 6th

I didn't eat enough during the day and started to feel pretty weak. It was one of those days where I was running from place to place, task to task. I ended up snacking a lot this evening instead. I had an Apple, some cashews and almonds. For dinner I had leftover salad with chicken. This is the second night this week that I went to the gym and the second time with Kiernan. He's really enjoying our new gym membership. Maybe he will be my gym buddy instead.

Tuesday, February 4th

Tonight I'm with Lulu at her first cheerleading practice. Mike had to encourage her to come but she's had a grin on her face the whole time. She's having a blast.

I've been very good today but I feel like I'm starving. I need to get home and fill up on veggies.

Monday, February 3rd

Super Bowl was yesterday. I decided to play it safe and I ate before we left. I didn't eat enough though because I was hungry.  I didn't eat chips. I didn't eat candy. I had some vanilla creamer in my coffee and I had some meatballs. Boy, oh boy. I wanted to reach my hand into that bowl of M&M's. I must have walked past that bowl 5 times. But my hand stayed out. I'm back on track today.

We joined a gym this month. We actually joined on Friday but I had to work on Friday and Saturday. I considered going on Sunday before the game but decided to sleep. Tonight, Kiernan went to the gym to play basketball so after dinner I joined him there. I walked on the treadmill for 1/2 hour, did some arm strengthening exercises and did a round of leg exercises. I didn't do a whole lot on the machines because I didn't want to overdo it on my first night.

I got this!!