I had to fast overnight for a blood test and I haven't recovered yet. I've been exhausted all day and eating sugar and drinking caffeine. And it didn't help. I feel like I'm limping to the finish line and yet, still have a test to study for. I had a salad for dinner that I topped off with the last slice of Apple pie (it was small) and a couple of squares of dark chocolate. I could have more!! If I didn't think I'd be awake for a week, I'd have some coffee. Note to self; stay on schedule!!
Friday, March 21, 2014
Now comes the part where I have to deal with what comes after weight loss; I have less and less things in my closet to wear! I'm not complaining. I'm just trying to figure out how best to deal with it. I tried on jeans yesterday at JcPenney's. I was able to wear a size 14 but liked the cut on the 15 better. But at this rate, I'll be in a smaller size again in a few months. My bewbs are swimming in my bra. But also the skin on my face is starting to sag. That bothers me the most and I'm not sure how to deal with that.
Thursday, March 20, 2014
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
Today is the 11th anniversary of the worst day of my life. 11 years and it doesn't hurt less. I have a wonderful life with my hubby and two babies but it doesn't hurt less.
I went out of town this last weekend. I wasn't a food saint but I also didn't go crazy. I didn't gain or lose so that's a victory for me.
The voice on my head is using my cheat weekend as a jumping off point for the non-stop negotiations that always come when I try and get healthy. Nothing bad happened and I ate 90% cocoa chocolate. So, if nothing bad happened then I can get away with a little more, right? What if I have some every day? It won't be bad. Constant fighting! Constant exhausting fighting!!!!
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
Monday, March 10, 2014
Friday, March 07, 2014
I finally broke down and opened my Lindt 90% cocoa bar. I had dance class tonight plus hadn't used all my calories for the day. 4 squares are 240 calories. I ate it pretty slow and tried to savor it. It was hard because 90% isn't that sweet. But, it hit the spot. I followed it up with frozen strawberries.
Thursday, March 06, 2014
I'm excited about having to purchase new pants!
The temptation to eat garbage is less and less. I saw a donut today and thought about a trick an old Weight Watchers leader told me. Look at the food and how vibrant the color is. Then imagine the color getting more and more dull. Imagine it getting so dull that it starts to look old and even moldy. By the time I was done, the donut looked almost green. I didn't want it to start with and definitely didn't want it after.